the sea of dreams and nightmares -- flurr

[Natsuki Suzuki]

our voices carry

careful words we can barely speak out loud

All was different now. What was in the past was in the past, what was the dream future was now thrown away, and the present was changed forever.  Only down to one parent, a whole new school, and most of all the one thing she hated. She left her best friend in the old town, Tanu was gone and forever possibly it was unlikely she would ever see him again. So now, she had to change her whole life to figure out how to live without what she had in the past. It was all over .. Her life was changing and she wasn't to sure if it was for the best or the worse.

You can do this Natusuki.. Its just you and your dad now.. But you can do it! That was probably the biggest lie I had ever told myself. I lost my best friend back when I was in fifth grade, so I was about 12 years old. It was awful .. I had known him sense the first day of school.. Now I have just graduated Highschool and I'm on my way to College. Its been many years, I am now the age of 18 and yes I've made friends here and there but none like Tanu.

However friend and boyfriends and all of that didn't matter to me now, my main goal was to act in my dream of becoming a web designer. I drew up my own sketches of what I wanted to do, and put it into many things on the computer. Such as websites, drawing on line, and many many more things. I get lonely yes, but it happens when your a total nerd. That's exactly me.. I'm what many would categorize as a nerd and I was proud of it, proud as Ill ever be.

So you might be wondering what I do with my life after I go to my classes, well this is it. I sit at the beach and stare into the ocean, most times I draw my surroundings. People at the beach, the ocean itself, the sky the birds, the trees. That's what I'm doing now, its sunset, so I'm drawing the beautiful oranges and purples and blues mixed together in the sky. I draw the setting sun, and the blue ocean, I draw a few black birds and I know I'm lost in my thought.

For this I'm ok with .. it relaxes me. I go into my own world most of the time, and so I did not even realize when I started to draw a person that had stepped just a few feet away in front of my canvas. He was staring at the ocean and the sky and ended up in my sketch, but by the time I noticed it was to late.. I had intrigued him I'm assuming because I noticed he was leaning over my shoulder looking at my art.

Letting out a cry, I jumped back and looked at the male with scared eyes. I opened my mouth to talk but no words came out, so I just looked at the sand and  kicked it shyly.

522 | Tanu Ura | i love muse

❖ nox ❖

[Tanu Ura]

Tanu Ura . . .

▲ Status: Hungry Word Count: 397 Notes: Lol my post is so bad. ;w; sparky of cryptic truth

He peeked over her shoulder and he seemed in awe by the art. "That's some pretty fancy stuff!" He  grinned. "Is that me?" When she let out a cry and jumped back he stepped back as well, startled. "Aye, watch it!" He took a few steps back. He blinked and looked over at the girl. "Oh hey I know you. "N.. I remember, but I don't." He scratched the back of his head in thought.  "Don't tell me.. It starts with an N.. Hmm.." He looked back at her. "Natsuki Suzuki! Haha! Hey!" He waved. "You startled me when you jumped back." He hadn't seen her since he was twelve, at least so he remembered. Almost just after that he had become a Fureru. Now he was unable to make any contact with humans or he'd disappear. "Haha.. How are you?" He inquired with a cock of his head. It had definitely been a while and he didn't even know where to begin explaining this to her. He couldn't even remember whether she knew he was a Fauna- able to possess ears and tails in his human-looking shape and shift into an actual animal when he wanted. He didn't know if she knew he was a Tanuki. "Remember me? Tanu. Tanu Ura." He wondered if she'd even remember him. Really it hadn't been too long ago.. Was it? He'd been living in a forest with a bunch of spirits and lack of human contact. He was hesitant around people and easily startled.. How would he explain that? He used to be so outgoing- he still was at times.. but he had changed drastically in more ways then just becoming a Fureru. "Umm.. I think we went to elementary school together. We hung out a lot. Uh.. What else? Well if you don't remember me that's fine." He shrugged with a grin planted on his face. "But hey you've become a pretty good artist! That's some nice drawing skills you have there." He looked over at the sheet she had been drawing on. "Say, if you don't think you will keep that drawing.. I'll have it. Don't think I've ever owned a portrait or an image of myself before! Hehe." He laughed lightly and kicked a bit of the sand. "I personally really like that drawing."

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[Natsuki Suzuki]

Like starting war, Like spilling ink. Like the empty street You swore you saw Before you blinked. There's no second thought, There's no turning back. There's no calling off This avalanche. Every day, now spent Underneath white flags. Every intention, eclipsed By every stain of the past.

-- there's no argument *

When the male spoke, I cried again and whimperd slightly. That's when the male complimented on my art and I gave a quick glance to it before my face flushed red with a blush. I shook my head and looked up at him with scared hazel eyes. "I-I" I couldn't seem to get the words out of my mouth. Then I slowly shook my head "Y-ya.. I'm sorry that is you.. I guess I drew you without you knowing.." I said shaking my head slowly.

"S-sorry again!" I said and looked down, that was until I caught eyes with the male and sort of just stared at him for a bit. "Y-" before I could speak the male spoke again making me shy back a bit from embarrassment. Then my head shot straight up as he said he knew me. I gave him a questioning look as he tried to figure out my name. It took him a minute and he guessed many times that my name started with a N and he wasn't wrong. Natsuki Suzuki, that had been my name sense the day I was born.

Slowly nodding my head I looked at the ground again "Y-Yes I'm Natsuki Suzuki" I answered when he finally figured out my name, thats when my head shot up "W-Wait Tanu Ura?! I-I thought you stayed in the country.." I whispered. Then when he asked for my art piece, I quickly nodded "Y-Ya! You can have it .." I said again.

There's no argument- Fairness is a ghost. There's no argument- It is a rare bird at the most. But every sighting is proof. And every heart-beat proves it too: That only love can change the shape Of such permanent truths. Of such permanent truths. Such permanent truth.

❖ nox ❖

[Tanu Ura]

Tanu Ura . . .

▲ Status: Bored. sparky of cryptic truth

His eyes lit up. "Really? Sweet! Thanks." He tilted his head in confusion at her apologies. "I guess I might of forgot but you sure do apologize a lot. There's no need! I think it's pretty cool I was the subject of art." He laughed.  "Nah I was supposed to go to Autralia at one point but I ended up staying here with my Uncle. But.. I stopped living with him when I was about twelve, right after I stopped seeing you." He explained with a small shrug. "Things happened, some good, some not so good. Some.. surprising.." Like he knew he'd have a spell put on him to become a Fureru. He was twelve he wasn't that aware of what was going on. "So.. I haven't seen you in ages. Other then drawing what have you been up to?" He inquired. "It's been years so don't use the old 'nothing' excuse." He grinned.  "That won't do."

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[Natsuki Suzuki]

Like starting war, Like spilling ink. Like the empty street You swore you saw Before you blinked. There's no second thought, There's no turning back. There's no calling off This avalanche. Every day, now spent Underneath white flags. Every intention, eclipsed By every stain of the past.

-- there's no argument *

"Y-Your welcome" she squeaked out. Then she ducked down nodding "Y-Ya I naturally apologize a lot .. sometimes to much.." she said shaking her head as she looked up at him with a shy smile. He was taller than her and it wasn't helping that he was slightly crouched down.

"Sounds like a fun life.." she said and then looked up at him with a big blush. The male knew her to well, she most of the time would say nothing much but she had to now. Her hazel eyes traveled to look at the ocean to distract her from her stutter "Well.. I have been learning to drive.. I've been dealing with web design classes at college. Oh ya! I started college.. Uhm.. I don't know how really to explain most of what I've done." she said.

There's no argument- Fairness is a ghost. There's no argument- It is a rare bird at the most. But every sighting is proof. And every heart-beat proves it too: That only love can change the shape Of such permanent truths. Of such permanent truths. Such permanent truth.

❖ nox ❖

[Tanu Ura]

Tanu Ura . . .

▲ Status: Bored. sparky of cryptic truth

"That's alright I do that too, sorta." He shrugged and sat down. "May as well take a seat if were going to be here for a while, eh?" He gave a slight cheeky grin. "Drive? Lucky! I haven't done anything like that.. exactly." He mumbled. "I think the most accomplishing thing I did was finish high school and I'm not going to college right away. I like the arts too. But for certain reasons I don't think it is going to work out." He laughed sheepishly and sighed. "Well I'm really glad you have been doing well. I know it has been a really long time." He looked around. "So.. What are you studying at college? More arts? You seem to have the talent for it so I honestly would not be surprised."

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[Natsuki Suzuki]

Like starting war, Like spilling ink. Like the empty street You swore you saw Before you blinked. There's no second thought, There's no turning back. There's no calling off This avalanche. Every day, now spent Underneath white flags. Every intention, eclipsed By every stain of the past.

-- there's no argument *

The female watched as he sat down. She slowly backed up a bit and then looked down. "Y-You can.. I-Ill stand" she whispered in a barley audible voice. The female shook her head "D-Driving sucks.." she said and looked at the sand.

"I-I went to college right away.." she said gently and then looked up at him. "I want to be a art major.." she squeaked out.

There's no argument- Fairness is a ghost. There's no argument- It is a rare bird at the most. But every sighting is proof. And every heart-beat proves it too: That only love can change the shape Of such permanent truths. Of such permanent truths. Such permanent truth.

❖ nox ❖